its all fun and games (well no, actually) until you realize the feeling never goes away. now whether there's a stressor or not i always feel gloomy and sad and anxious like nothings ever enough and the future is gonna be so dark and boring and ill be trapped in doing shit i dont even like/wanna do just to earn money to live. i hate the system so much i hate everything about this world. and it frustrates me that we are 'designed' to suffer and swallow the bitter pill that we cant always have what we want. i just want peace in this shitty world we're living in.