Dear ***, I'm sorry if i often cancel plans suddenly. It's just that, my body often ran out of energy all of a sudden. My emotional capacity was drained all of a sudden. My depression worsened all of a sudden. My anxiety went awry all of a sudden. No, it's definitely not because I don't prioritize you. Of course I prioritize you and the plans we made, the plans I too agreed upon. I know until now you see this simply as my mood swings, but it's kinda deeper than that. Maybe I will open up about my depression and the things that are torturing my mind. But perhaps, not now. I don't want to ruin our relationship by me opening up to you. I know you will understand me, but I don't want to hurt you. I don't want my sudden outbursts to make you overthink. I don't want to see you poisoned with my mind. I don't want to see you change for the worse because of me.