literally my biggest fear now is having to wake up in panic. ya kayak panik... gmn si rasanya lu baru bangun, nyawa blm kekumpul tp hati lu tb2 langsung panik, trs pikiran lu jd kacau, jd ga bisa fokus seharian, jantung deg2an. trs ntu panik ilang digantiin sama rasa cemas & takut for whatever reason. there's always a trigger dan seenggaknya gue tau ini msh dalam kadar aman (karena muncul kalo cm ada trigger doang). but pls... this is becoming unbearable each day. and there's no way i have to go through this every week... i want to shoot myself