u know what i dont wanna die, no, it'll be painful and i dont wanna leave the people i love. but sometimes everything's too much and somehow i thought, this is all that life has, 70% sadness 30% happiness, i know nothing lasts forever but what if someday i'm getting too tired to even try? to get up and heal myself just for it to be wounded again and again. i'm an idealist who thought life is not supposed to be like this but know there's nothing i can do either but still cant accept reality the way it is. i can feel the day approaching