i mean when you're ready to be in a relationship, you must ready to get hurt feeling if its not what you're expected them to be. goodluck to finish yours list, nothing will finish your work except you. i hope its get the best result your fam is proud to have you in their life, honey no matter what twisted you re, they're always feels like home for you. you already did that to make them proud. ik you try your best to workout and lose weight so much, its all from the support of family too. for your future partner, i'm thousand percent he will love you for who you are and make you the most happiest person in earth. your flawless is a beautiful part that someone will get jealous of. u can live without judgement of society anymore stop doing that kind related of dating app. you'll get lost trust me it's scary of how people only wants you for release 'their sex activities' trust me you will get someone what you really deserve. and pls comparing your relationship to others is really useless. we don't know behind all the stories of others relationship you and your partners will have unique chemistry to built in. everyone has their own path and story. simple like u make smile only for makin jealous of people while instastory. and then its over behind scenes we don't know what really happens. is the couple really happy?