I know you won't understand my condition although I explain it(that's because I'm not good in explain something). But thank you for you caring and everything you've done to make me not depress again. I still in depression sometimes, if you ask. But I can't make respond like " where are you when i need you? Where are you when I fall?" Because I think I did the same to you. Yes, I told you if I still in the same place and you can find me there but it's not 100% true. I still in the same place that's a fact but it doesn't mean i'm okay in my position. Might be you already come to that place but can't find me because I drawn by my problems(this is an analogy, btw). You know an important thing for me that I get from you? It's a graceful feeling, why? Because you see me different from anyone including my parents, like 480 degree different from most of people see me and even I don't and can't see that sides. Before there is "something", we used to very close and have fun memories but due to our different condition, level, status, and not only the others thing but also because of "something" , we aren't as close as before. Just if you remember it, I miss that memories. But hahaha... you need more than just words and I can't give that to you with my current condition(and I always big mouth in front of you). You know, after big "something" when you said, you feel safe while you were around me, It makes me remind our moments for a while and Little bit feel happy. I know this is will be just a useless paragraph because you won't see this. From what I know, you dont play this platform. But I'm sure there is someone tells this to you.(or maybe not after she/he know who's the sender of this messege)